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Wednesday, March 20, 2013

Blood and Fire - Chapter Forty Two


“Girls!  Time to go!” yells Mrs. Bennett up the stairs making a last minute hair adjustment in the hallway mirror,  “You don’t want to be late!”

“Is everyone in the crew accounted for?” asks Mr. Bennett searching for the handle on his Bb tuba case which he begins to trail behind him through the cluttered living room of practice sheets of music that the girls remembered to practice in a family ensemble last night even though they were given the music a month prior to that.

Smacking on a piece of gum, Kitty struggles to carry her notebook, trendy women’s magazines to share the samples with her friends, an opened purse which she forgot to close unevenly balancing above the books, and her baritone case.   “Dad, we don’t have to be there too early!  Everyone usually arrives about ten minutes after it starts anyway!”

Scratching his head, Mr. Bennett returns a flat smile since her words are honest but not helpful in his mission, “I think it would be nice for the entire Bennett family to arrive pronto and on time once a year.  It can be our annual tradition.”

Smirking Kitty tilts her head to the side looking up at him, “Dad, we’re not that bad…” then skeptically reconsidering for a moment their last few months of attendance at any Army function “well … almost.”

Swinging her trombone case side to side while attempting to multitask by reading a book while walking, Mary bumps into the recliner and then ungracefully glides out of the way.  She bumps into Kitty who turns around and pushes her back with the palm of her hand on Mary’s shoulder.

“Mary, I wish you would watch where you are going.  I’m standing right in front of you!” demands Kitty glaring at her sister.

“You didn’t have to stand in the walkway.  I thought you were headed out the door behind dad.  I can’t help it if you are in my way” explains Mary turning another page of her recently purchased thriller from the thrift store “This book is really good.  I’ll let you read it when I’m done.”

On the verge of being annoyed, Kitty looks at the title and the author of the book Mary is holding and then realizes it is about a blockbuster movie that is just coming out and changes her mind “Okay.  Do you think you’ll be finished tomorrow?  I’ve wanted to read the book.  Books are always better than the movies, even the best ones.  But just watch where you are walking next time.”

“Where’s mom now?” asks Mary looking up taking a temporary break in between chapters “Is she already outside in the van?”

“Here I am. I just found my timbrel!” squeals Mrs. Bennett giving a couple of shakes for proof “Someone hid it in the back of the closet and I almost didn’t find it!”

There is a quiet unanimous sigh amongst the others of the group.  Glancing around not to catch their mother’s eye, they all move uniformly towards the vehicle.

Finally Mary unable to hold her opinion for one minute longer speaks, “Mom, I think you need to let Captain Brandon pick the tempo.  He is the bandmaster and it is his choice.”

“Well, I thought that the song needed a little more spunk and spirit.  Didn’t you think so?  He needed to move it along.  I didn’t mean to cause any problem, I was just trying to help him get it together with a better beat” noticing that her family is remaining mum on the subject, Mrs. Bennett defends her un-rhythmic actions “I didn’t mean to stop the band last month during the United Meeting.  But he really did need to speed up some.”

In reflection Mr. Bennett responds, “Well honey, some of us are Klingons, and there are others of us who are Romulans, and a few actually make it to the crew.  As a Klingon, I would like to share this proverb with you, “Four thousand throats may be killed by one running man”.  Sweet dear one … you are that man.”

Slightly puzzled, Mrs. Bennett looks at him but considering that her husband might mean that she is a hero allows the comment to be received as a compliment.  Contentedly, she kisses her husband’s cheek. On the other side of the van, Kitty and Mary share a secret look with each other and knowingly smile.

As they arrive at the Crestwood corps , they see “Maud” pulling into the parking lot.  As their sisters crawl out, Jane stretches before reaching in again to grab her tenor horn case.  Standing beside her car, Liz shakes her head wildly in the wind to let any flying particles leave their home before putting her hair back into a pony tail.  The air conditioner has gone out again just before the beginning of summer and they had to drive with the windows down.

“I’m so glad you stopped for the sweet tea.  I didn’t expect it to be this hot so early this year” offers Jane sipping for longer than usual on her cold drink “When will you be able to put “Maud” into the shop again?”

“Well, I’m actually considering purchasing another car.  I will miss her.  She is costing more than I can afford to keep her running.  Her expenses each month are totaling more than a car payment” discouragingly states Liz patting the roof of her car as if it is a long-loved pet.

“Well, at least we’ll have air” wiping her brow states Jane as sweat pours down the other side of her face but not noticing that same of her makeup has also started to melt in the meantime.

Walking late into rehearsal, everyone else has found their place and sitting in the band. Captain Brandon turns around to notice the most recent newcomers.  “Hello!  Good to see all of the Bennetts today! We’ve just started with a hymn tune “Come Thou Fount” as a warm-up”.

Quietly Jane finds her place next to the now Lieutenant Ellen Ferris who kindly smiles at her and points to the number where the band is about to play.

In the second chair of the solo cornet section, Liz Steel impatiently asks “Who is sitting in the principal chair?  It doesn’t look like anyone has arrived yet!  If no one is coming, I can move up.”

“We are having guests today.  I received a text a few minutes ago that they are stuck in traffic but will be here soon” explains Brandon not wanting to encourage any movement on her part. “Knightly, there will also be another euphonium player coming today to join you.”

Rather anxious in that being late isn’t exactly his favorite pastime, Mr. Bennett finds his chair next to Wickham who is playing the Eb Tuba part.  They politely nod to each other and flip through their music to distract attention.

“Okay, shall we begin?” courteously asks Brandon raising his baton to the podium but noticing some rapid chaotic movement in the corner of his eye.

“What did you say we were playing again?” asks Alice Hammer sitting in the last chair of the second row of cornets as her tune books fall to the floor from her stand “I’ve seem to have lost my place.”  Lila Steel  takes a moment from her intense focus off of David removing the moisture from his instrument while sitting across from her in the trombone section to help Alice Hammer pick up her folder of formerly organized music.

Shaking her head, Jennings sighs behind her in the percussion section very grateful that at least it is not her this time who is lost.  Last month she put up the wrong band piece while playing the bells.  She did a good job playing for quite awhile to the march tune of “The Yellow Rose of Texas” before realizing that she was playing along with the Euphonium solo of a different ballad piece of “What a Friend with have in Jesus”.  Amazingly the tunes fit rather well together in a slightly western style so at least she personally felt that her mistake wasn’t instantly recognizable.

 Anne sitting next to Ted Ferris resting his soprano on his knee politely asks “Can I share a stand with you? I’m going to give my stand which is a bit more stable to Alice Hammer to borrow for the rehearsal.”

It appears that things are settling down so rehearsal can begin. Just as Captain Brandon raises his baton again counts “One, two, three …” a loud permeating sneeze echoes over the band.  Jennings replies “So sorry, I didn’t know that my nose liked to keep time too!”  Brandon smiles at her while Captain Wentworth on the snare hands her a box of Kleenix which he finds behind the mercy seat just beyond the band in front of the platform.

Captain Brandon rubs his chin and wipes his hands against his pants waiting for another pause.  He happens to glance up and look at Jane who looks a little peculiar but he decides not to say anything.  It is already starting to be an interesting day.

 

The first bar begins with a flugel solo, he looks to Liz Bennett to see if she is ready for her part.  Liz returns a smile and he knows that it is clear to begin.  His hands raise and stall in mid-air to capture everyone’s attention before beginning.  He eyes meet contact with most members of the band.  Mr. Woodhouse sitting next to Mr. Bennett Bb tuba as well appears to have taken a short quick nap against the bell of his horn in the midst of the recent chaos.   Brandon sharply clears his throat which brings him to instant wide-eyed attention.

As Liz begins to play, the music of the band fills the room in its beauty and color.  The tone of the band is even and melodic.  It feels as if all nature is in balance and God is quietly speaking to each of them of their own needs and concerns as He whispers to them through the notes and chords of a familiar song.  The setting has changed, but the lyrics have not.  As the words resound in their hearts as they play, the promises are affirmed in reflection of the music.

In between pieces, Brandon shares a short note of how the pieces came to be written.  Most of the composers were experiencing a difficult transition or moment in their life when they wrote either the music or the lyrics which alternately were currently empathetically touching the lives of those in the band.  Brandon sensitively creates an atmosphere of not only skillful playing but of spiritual renewal as well throughout the rehearsal.

After playing several pieces, the chapel doors open. Harriet sitting next to Lila stands up and waves wildly.  Hey it’s Bingley!  We worked at camp together a few years ago. How are you doing? ” she yells from across the room during the short intermission between pieces. 

Immediately Jane freezes and stares down at the music on her stand trying to focus her thoughts without letting everyone else in the room feel her trembling expression of sheer shock, delight, and agony.

In response Liz turns directly at her sister to see if she is okay and to offer some distant support.  Liz finds herself frowning as Jane raises her face to acknowledge Liz’s concern.  “Uh oh” worried Liz thinks “How can I tell her?”  Liz moves her hands to her cheek and starts wiping her face.  Jane just stares back at her.  Liz begins to point at Jane and wipes her face again.   But unfortunately, Jane too nervous about other events in the room at that moment is a little lost in confusion.

Darcy calmly follows in behind Bingley which his euphonium case in hand.  Bingley beams walking up to Brandon having noticed that Jane is already there even if she hasn’t looked up to notice him yet. “Where would you like me to sit?  I’ll play any part.  I’m so glad you allowed us to play along with you today.  It’s fun to play in a band wherever I go”.

“We’re glad to have both of you join us today!” shaking their hands Brandon points his hand to their respective chairs and they find their places. 

As soon as he sits down, Bingley looks over to see if he can capture Jane’s attention.  But she has raised her stand and turned it towards him so that the view is blocked.  So, he scoots further back in his chair, and raises himself just a bit to see if he can catch a glimpse of her for a moment.  She bends further below her stand as if trying to clear already removed moisture again out of her horn.  Then Bingley filled with another idea, bends over placing his mute on the floor next to his chair to see if he can look at her under the stand. She turns her knees towards Ellen making this impossible.  The band is watching them having heard most of the gossip in the division about their previous break-up rather amused by their routine.  Undeterred, Bingley intentionally hits his stand so that a piece of sheet music goes flying into the air towards the horn section.   Seeing this movement from under her stand, Jane turns to her father behind her “Dad, do you have some valve oil?”

Her father kindly looks at his daughter, “Uh … Jane … I think you might need to take a break for a moment.  There is something I think you might need to fix.”

Not entirely sure what her father means, Jane stands up from her chair and quickly walks past Bingley towards the bathroom who in turn follows her out of the chapel into the fellowship hall.

“Jane, wait a minute!  I would like to talk to you!” runs Bingley after her as she walks even faster towards the restrooms.  He catches up with her and gently touches her arm.  “Jane, how are you?”

Finally Jane looks up not sure how she wants to respond.

Bingley furrows his brow and opens his eyes widely “Jane, I think there is something wrong.”

“Yes, of course there is” affirms Jane surprised that he actually recognized that something has not been quite right between them since he left last fall.

“I think you need to take a look at yourself” stammers Bingley before any other words can come out.

“What?  I need to look at myself?  What about you?  What have you been doing?”  with indignation states Jane.

“I’m here.  I mean … I meant… there’s a problem” taping his cheek while speaking Bingley attempts to warn her.

“Yes, I know there has been a problem.  You stopped speaking to me” firmly states Jane feeling somewhat at ease in that of his recognition that a problem has existed between them.

“Yeah, I know” trying to figure out what exactly is being said Bingley continues “I think something is sticking to you”.

“What? Like bitterness? Maybe hurt?” snaps Jane “What do you expect when you didn’t return any of my emails or even attempt to try and contact when we were such good friends.”

“Uh … no that’s not what I’m talking about … but it isn’t like that” stumbles Bingley shaking his head “I mean that you have a right to feel that way but that’s not what I’m trying to say.”

Interrupting him while he is still speaking, Jane uncharacteristically rattles “What are you trying to say?  You haven’t said anything for so long do you even know what you want to say?”

Completely unnerved and tongue-tied Bingley puts a hand on each shoulder, “Jane, you have dark make-up streaming down your face.  I think you might have smeared your mascara and eye-liner.  You look a little more like a zombie than the Jane that I know.”

“You think that I look bad?” as Jane’s eyes fill with tears not haven’t ever dreamt that she would look so silly when finally meeting up with Bingley again “I didn’t want to look ugly when I saw you again” as she begins to weep.   It is beyond humiliation that she feels able to endure at the moment. She continues while sniffling, “It’s because the air condition in Liz’s car broke.  It was so stinking hot today and she refused to take my car because she wanted to save on gas.  She bought this makeup at a flea market and gave it to me.  I didn’t know it would smear.”

While she is still speaking, Bingley grabs a napkin from one of the tables which is prepared to bring lunch for the divisional band and begins and slowly wipes the dark smeared makeup from her face.  He pulls her close and hugs her. 

“I’m so sorry Jane.  I should have told you why I made that decision.  We probably would have kept in touch if I had given you a chance to explain rather than listening to a lot of irrational gossip of others” sincerely apologizes Bingley holding her closer to him “You meant and mean everything to me.  I’ve missed you.  I’m so sorry that I hurt you and acted like a fool.”

“I’ve miss you so much too” hugging him back Jane continues “Maybe I should have let you know how I felt about you, it might have been easier for you to know how to respond. I heard some of the gossip and it really wasn’t true.  My heart belonged only to you not to anyone else.”

“I know that now. Do you think we could start over?” sweetly asks Bingley looking into her eyes “I think that I might act a little differently this time.  I’m not going to run away from you.”

Looking up and smiling at him while Bingley holds her, Jane softly replies “I don’t want to go anywhere other than being next to you.”

 

 

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